Yesterday was a particular rough day for me. I had a kind of
slap in the face concerning finances and a few other things. Let me give you a
bit of a background before I go into yesterday. In April, my husband lost his
job. I had been working just a few months at a new job and was making semi
decent money. I was not too concerned, as my husband has never had a problem
finding or keeping a job. I thought that things would work out, and they did
for a while. My income was keeping us above water and after a 2month, long
battle with his former employer unemployment was finally approved. In august I decided
to go back to school. Working around the school schedule was tough. I was doing
ok. At the beginning of November, I lost my voice and missed work because of it.
I was subsequently fired. A long battle with my former employer ensued and I was
approved for unemployment. My husband and I swallowed our pride and applied for
food assistance the process was like pulling teeth and after 3 months or so of
waiting and praying, we were approved for sixteen dollars a month. The stress
and worry triggered my insomnia and my schoolwork began to suffer. Long sad
story short I failed out of college, lost my financial aid for the second time
and I became very depressed which I am still dealing with. Almost a year later I
started taking a phlebotomy classes, Adrian got a job, and I have been working
hard at finding a job and have had some good leads. After all this bullshit,
this started to turn around. Then yesterday
which was the day I had scheduled my driving test I had expected Adrian’s
last unemployment check to come through and after 3days of living off of Ramen
I was ready to get some grocery’s and no have to worry for a few days especially
after I realized I would need money for
my license. Well no such luck, I woke up to no money, no food in the house, no
nothing. I spent the morning crying Adrian’s dad gave him a gas card for work
and we were so grateful for that. Then the dilemma of we had no food in the
house I did something I have never done as an adult living on my own. I went to
a food bank and thank god for them. We had enough to eat for a few days and I
managed to count change enough for a pack of cigarettes. Adrian’s mom loaned us
30 dollars and filled up his gas tank and once again, I was grateful. Having to
have a realization of not having things and no being able to support yourself
hit me hard I grew up like that going with my mother to stand in the food stamp
line going to church food banks and I just wanted to be over all that I wanted
to be better and do better and I just got really upset at the whole situation I
have to say that 2012 was a hard and sad year for us and I am glad 2013 is
looking up for us
Sorry again for the venting but I needed to get this off my
chest
ps. I think my grammar and puctuation is getting a bit better what do you think?
*look for this weeks top 5 songs to clean the house to comming soon*
